this is it!

inilah yg dinamakan dunia.. dipenuhi dengan pelbagai watak dan peranan...dan aku... salah seorang pelakonnya.. susah sangat2 bila disalah ertikan dan dipertikaikan.. aku tak taw pada sapa harus aku meluah dan pada sapa harus ku curah apa yang aku rasa sekarang ini...baka kata lagu amuk - aku mahu pulang ...

Aku manusia, pelakon cerita
Di pementasan, alam ciptaannya
Bukan sengaja, melanggar arahan
Kadang terlupa, watak dan peranan

Aku manusia

kadang kadang aku lupa akan tujuan hidupku, mmg aku ceburu melihat org lain bahagia, tapi aku??? aku cuba untuk mencari kekuatan dalam diri aku tuk menharungi semua ini.. cuma kadang2 sungguh  aku rasa diri ku sentiasa diuji oleh TUHAN.. andai aku diberi pilihan mmg akan ku pilih untuk tak buat kesilapan ku itu dan meneruskan hidupku dan impianku... haish...

last night

ni ha aku na cite.. last nyte, kak ipa aku n abg aku ajak aku g kuar.. dorg tak mentioned taw na g CLUBBING.. dorg just cakap kuar ngan kawan dia.. aku pown join la... alang bosan.. aku ikut jer... sekali tu pergi area batu 2 1/2.. aku rs cm pernah jer aku lalu tmpt tu n macam taw2 jer hala tujunya.. skali masuk area kedai tu aku dah nengok dah deretan PUB.. hah sah! mmg pegi "ngepub" (clubbing)..


aku suke sebnanye g clubbing.. itulah masa aku na jadi kera kena blacan puas2.. tp yang menjadi MASALAH PROBLEM nye... baju  dah ok, sluar pown dah ok.. cume tak make-up, rmbut pown cm rmbt hantu kak limah... (still tak kesah) YANG MENJADI MASALAHNYA,... AKU PAKAI SLIPER JEPUN JER KOWTT!!!! tak ke bengong jer...


bercerita pasal sliper jepun, last year.. pada 1 may 2010 (perghh ingat lagi tarikhnye) aku di ajak oleh sahabat sejatiku (chewah.. kang tak dpuji amek ati lak c dia) si DAYLYN MARIA ni pergi gig, TRIBUTE TO ROCK KANGKANG.. ha ni lagu satu kesah... dimana... aku pakai SLIPER JEPUN lagi g layan gig... yarabiiiiii!!! mmg fashion disaster btol.. dah lawa2 pakai sliper jepun... tp kan... syokk ooo kalo pakai sliper jepun,,., ko tak yah pikir2 dah kalo heels patah akibat terlalu terkinja2 kat club.. hahahahah


ok.. aku smbg balik kesah aku g clubbing nie... pastu smpai kat club tu... MALU2 KUCENG NEYH.. aku tgk kawan abg aku tu dah order satu karton TIGER BEER.. dlm hati aku O.M.G.. sure aku tak dpt minom hbs nie sbb aku kalah giler dgn beer... tp th camne bila dah lelame tu aku macam syok plak one go one go minom beer.. fulamakkkk! mmg besh giler arrr ... tak smpai stgh jam kepala aku dah best.. siap ikut nyanyi lagi... bila intersession sblm next song na main.. ada lagu besh2... aku pown shake tat body la nari2 ala2 malu kucing kat kerusi.. then dorg ajak pindah g bar..


ha tu dia.. kat bar tulah aku boleh terkeluarkan skill terkinja2 ku... PASTU ADA PULAK LAGU POCO2.. kakak ipar aku leh tarek aku g dance floor n kitorg pown NARI LA POCO2.. ya rabbi... step aku dah sumbang mambang dah dek kerana mabuk terlampau...eisk2... mmg sangat besh aku rasa ketika itu... last2 sblm balik aku boleh muntah... terkeluar smua isi2 perut aku... huuuuu


itulah cerita aku mlm tadi.. sekian terima kasihhhh

my immortal

I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears
And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave
Your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

You used to captivate me by your resonating light
Now, I'm bound by the life you left behind
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams
Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me

These wounds won't seem to heal, this pain is just too real
There's just too much that time cannot erase

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me

I've tried so hard to tell myself that you're gone
But though you're still with me, I've been alone all along

When you cried, I'd wipe away all of your tears
When you'd scream, I'd fight away all of your fears
And I held your hand through all of these years
But you still have all of me, me, me

OTOMEN BABI

selama ku hidup,
ku hidup di sini dengan kamu,
yg ku sayangi

cintaku padamu,
sedalam lautan biru,
oooooooooooo

mana mungkin aku,
mencari lain utk menjadi penggantimu
oh sayangku
otomennnnnnn..

wooooo otomennnnnnn~ yeah yeahhh~

kerana kamu,
akan ku tetap berada disini,
setia,
bersamamu

otomennnn,
kerana kelalaian kamu
mati semua ayam aku
dibunuh raksasa

oh otomen babi(x2)
babi lah otomen ituuu,
mati semua ayam2 aku..
itik aku..
dan juga lipas2, cicak2 dan juga monyet2 mcm grace..ooo
monyet mcm grace..
hooo hoooo...
monyet mcm grace babi.






UWAA NA UPLOAD VID NI TAKLEH..  TX TO DAYLYN EHHH LAGU YG MENGGEMBIRAKAN

keliru anak confused

seriusly aku rasa cm sial je skrg.. cm bodohnya aku percayakan dia bulat2.. rupa rupanya kasih syg dia untuk aku slama ni hanya kepura-puraan sahaja.. kenapa aku baru tahu hari ni? apa salah aku? apa dosa aku? tak habis2 masalah.. tuhan tolonglah aku... aku dah tak terdaya lagi dah na teruskan hidup aku kalo cmni terus...tolngla bagi aku kekuatan n ketabahan untuk melalui segala masalah yg timbul ini...

I DONT BELIEVE A WORD

Don't talk to me, I don't believe a word

Don't try to make me feel alright

All the love in all the world

Is not enough to save my soul tonight

Don't be my friend I'm not a fool

Don't talk of things that we cannot see

When all the ones that sing the blues

Sometimes I think of how it used to be

I have seen the Devil laugh

I have seen God turn his face away

I have nothing left to lose

I have nothing left to say

I have seen the sky turn black

I have seen the seas run dry

I have nothing that is yours

I have nothing now that is not mine

Don't look at me your eyes are cold & hard

Don't wonder that I turn to you

All the grief in all the world

Is not enough to make me comfort you

Don't tell me lies, I'm not a dog,

Don't talk of love it seems to me

All the people that we rob

Sometimes I think of how they used me

I have seen the fires of Hell

I have seen Angels with flaming swords

I have nothing that is mine

I have much that could be yours

I have seen the eye of God

I have heard lies that are true

I have nothing for myself

I have nothing I would give to you

Don't say that word, I know it's only fools

Who do not know their fate is just

All the justice in the world

Is not enough to buy my faith & trust

Don't make that face I won't be pleased

Don't make a sideshow of yourself

All the people we released

Sometimes I think you're someone else

I have been where none have been

In the empty howling rooms

I have everything I need

I have everything you stand to lose

I have seen the diamond worlds

I have seen the shape of space

I have nothing but the world

I have nothing to take its place

I don't believe a word, I don't believe a word ...

ONLY GOD KNOWS WHY

I've been sittin here
Tryin to find myself
I get behind myself
I need to rewind myself
Lookin for the payback
Listen for the playback
They say that every man bleeds just like me
And I feel like number one
Yet I'm last in line
I watch my youngest son
And it helps to pass the time
I take too many pills it helps to ease the pain
I made a couple of dollar bills, but still I feel the same
Everybody knows my name
They say it way out loud
A lot of folks fuck with me
It's hard to hang out in crowds
I guess that's the price you pay
To be some big shot like I am
Out strecthed hands and one night stands
Still I can't find love

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

Yeah
As it...hey

And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around

People don't know about the things I say and do
They don't understand about the shit that I've been through
It's been so long since I've been home
I've been gone, I've been gone for way too long
Maybe I forgot all things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life than this
I said it too many times
And I still stand firm
You get what you put in
And people get what they deserve
Still I ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin
I've been walking that there line
So I think I'll keep a walking
With my head held high
I'll keep moving on and only God knows why

Only God
Only God
Only God knows why, why, why, why
Only God...knows...why, why, why
Only God knows why
Take me to the river edge
Take me to the river, hey hey hey

I GOT TO KNOW WHO U ARE NOW

i know my instinct never lied to me... padanla ko dan2 tukar password n dan2 blocked aku dari FB ngko.. rupanya ko dah balik smula dgn bekas ko... nape tak gtaw je ko gatal na balik kat dia kan senang keje aku... uishh patotla aku minta ko byr utang aku suh byr bil yang ko dah LAMBAKKAN ko berdalihh bagus la babe... tuhan dah tunjuk aku sapa ko sebenarnya... WHAT YOU GIVE YOU'LL GET BACK IN PAIN STYLE.. tak pernah bahagia konon! kimak la! tak kesah la aku dah happy... aku dah happy idop tanpa ko lagi di depan mata aku!

having good quality time with princess lily

 baby can't wait to eat ice cream

 i want ice cream noww

 she only got to eat the cone only

 aunty grace was so noty put ice cream at princess lips

pose afta eating... see her hand.. still got the cone 

today is 16th 0f march... which is my little princess LILY FAITH birthday.. today is her first year old birthday.. eyeayyy.... we ate ice cream with her today and here are some of the candid

fuck it! i dont want you back

See, I dont know why I liked you so much

I gave you all, of my trust

I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain

Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]

You thought, you could

Keep this shit from me, yeah

Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story

Ya played me, ya even gave him head

Now ya askin for me back

Ya just another act, look elsewhere

Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care

You could ask anyone, I even said 

Ya were my great one

Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.

It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now

Fuck the presents might as well throw em out

Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack

Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

Oh oh

Uh huh yeah

[Until the end]

HATIN ON THE CLUB

Now this'll be the last time you did me wrong
No more laying up in your arms
No calling, saying you want me back
I'm packing my bags, what you think about that?

Stayed at home like a good girl do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car yall, kissing at the bar
Got me cry-yay-yay-yayyyy

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhhhhhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhhhhhhh
You got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahhhhhhhh

oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho(x2)

oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uh

oho oh

And you can be mad at me all you want
I ain't coming in, I'll be waiting out front
Coming out the door with your girlfriend
You did me wrong boy tell me where our love is

Stayed at home like a good girls do
But tonight baby you got me sad and blue
I just heard about the girl in your car yall, kissing at the bar
Got me cry-yay-yay-yayyy

[Chorus:]
Ohhhhhhhhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love
Now you got me like whoahhhhhhhh
You got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Why'd you have to take my love
Whoahhhhhhhh

oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho(x2)
oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uh,oho,uh
oho oh

Now this is the sound of a broken heart
There's only one reason why we're apart
She never woulda made it to your car
If it wasn't for the club, I'd still have my love(x2)
We would still have us(x2)
I'd still have my loveeeeeee(x2)
We would still have us

But now we're like whoahhhh

Ohhh, you got me hatin' on the club
'Cause you took my love
Oh you took my love

But now, now we're like whoahhhhhhh
You got me hatin' on the club
You took my love
Oh you took my love

You Got her hatin on ohhhh
You Got her hatin on the club(x4)
club,club,club

You Got her hatin on ohhhh
You Got her hatin on the club

PERGI MAMPUS - NARATU

Bila kawan menjadi lawan,

berkatalah kau dari belakang

Ke Kiri, Ke Kanan Kau Sapu,

Hipokrasi dalam sifatmu,

Tak hirau hati dan perasaan

Asal untung jadi ukuran...

korus:

PERGI MAMPUS (3x)

Pergi dari Hidup Aku

Pergilah, Pergi - Benci melihatmu

Manusia Berpura-pura

Kau hanya bijak mengatur kata

Ku tahu itu semua dusta

korus:

PERGI MAMPUS (3x)

Pergi dari Hidup Aku

bridge:

talam dua muka (4x)

PENGKHIANAT.... MENIKAM JIWA

Bila kawan menjadi lawan,

berkata-kata dari belakang

korus:

PERGI MAMPUS (3x)

Pergi dari Hidup Aku

aku blom ada idea

hahaha aku blom ada idea la na tulis pasal karangan budak kecik nie... ermmm bagi aku cari idea sat k

it finally me myself & i

akhir aku lepaskan juga kesengsaraan yang aku tanggung selama sebulan nie... dengan harapan aku takkan pernah pandang ke belakang lagi.. cinta itu indah tapi sukar untuk dimengerti... bagi aku.. cinta mmg wujud tp buat masa sekrang hatiku kering untuk menerima mana2 cinta yang wujud... biarla aku ubati hatiku ini dengan cara ku sendiri.. biarla org na kata aku hipokrit atau aku ni saja bermain api.. aku tak kesah... yang penting aku harus lupakan kesengsaraan aku secepat mungkin...